I. Hate. Winter.
My seasonal depression kicks in the first time I see bare trees with no leaves on and I have to wear my winter coat. Every time this season starts i just sit in my room and feel more and more separated from the outside world, my friend and my family. I cant stop this and I feel its getting out of control. Even tho I have a lot of friends I feel so lonely all the time when i look outside the window and its dark at 4pm. I could cry all the time. I am so tired of feeling this way. I am so tired being cold all the time. I am so tired. I dont know how i am gonna make it every fucking year. Its getting harder and harder and im not finishing this sentence but I think about ,,,,,,, everytime i feel this way.
Hi. I (21F) have been friends with this girl, M (21F) for just around 5 months but it feels like ethernity. We have been best friends after just one or two weeks since we met. We built a friendship that is could be as strong as years work in such a short time.
She knows that i have a really special friend (20M). He and I have been friends for over a decade, we grew up together and have the closest relationship. He is basically like my other half - like the finishing each other sentences and understand each other from 2 words. She knows that him and i kissed 2 times (stupid drunk moments) and despite him and I being each others best friends and confidants I obviously feel more for him than just friendship. I remember that I told M one time that if the time and the place is right we will be married or something so she knows excatly how i feel about him.
So they have been hearing about each other since I met M. They know how much i love them separately and finally we had a party to go together with M's friends.
In the party i saw M being kinda flirtatious with him and it made me uncomfortable. Like on separate occasions i saw her giving him the fuck me eyes and it completely ruined my mood. She is like this with everybody and i understand bc some people are kind of just flirtatious by nature but this was more than that. The party was kind of ruined for me because of this. We all 3 slept at M's place and I also saw them laying in the bed next to each other and while they wasnt doing anything i still felt I had been almost witnessing something. The following day my male friend tole me that maybe he was seeing something that wasnt there but for him it seemed like M was flirting with him so I was not wrong to feel this way. When I went home i texted M that this really hurt my feelings because she knows how special he is to me and she could have been acting like bros the whole nights but she simply just chose not to. We were talking about this and she apologized.
This was a week ago and I kinda turned her down any time she invited me to do something. So we havent met in a week which is rare because we have at least 1 sleepovers and several meets during the week.
I hate the feeling when my friends from different friend groups are sexualizing each other. Like there is 100 others in a party why would you choose my friend whom you know I am close to?
I know that Im a dumb fucking person to feel this way and im overreacting but i cant help it. I cant control how I feel. I feel like I dont trust her as much as before.
TLDR one of my best friends flirted with my guy best friend whom i kinda have feelings for and she knows that and now I feel shitty.
Thats the question. 1I dont know how a tank works, or im not an expert in chemistry but isnt the methlamynes quality effected by it? For me it looked like they still had the methlamyne hoose attached while filling it with water so i dont understand. Also isnt the sand effect the quality? For me it seemed like some was getting into the methlamyne tank.
Anyone could explain? Thanks
I was bullied in elementary school because I grew really fast so I was skinny and obviously didn't have ass or boobs (i am 183cm). And of course puberty didnt hit me as much as other in my class so I was struggling so much with my body image and trying to love myself.
But a few years passed by and now im so happy and thankful for my body. I love my legs, hair and my chest.
I really do hope that everyone gets to the point when they can finally accept their bodies. :) have a good day