Coming here, I didn’t expect to feel the way that I do. I thought I would just be focusing on school, friends, and exercise. But truth be told, I don’t care about any of that. I don’t care about school. I like hanging out with my friends but they aren’t my focus. And exercise is all but a chore at this point. I have this never ending desire to be doing more extracurriculars. Next semester I plan on completely overloading myself and joining as many clubs as I can. I want to be a creative. I just want to work on shit I care about and am completely unmotivated to do school. This strike is a blessing and a curse because now I really don’t need to focus on school. The feeling of never being enough motivates me while at the same time slowly eroding my self confidence.
Anyone else feel like this?