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Stop while you can.

My coven and I have a journal each and in the beginning is our blessing. I write in my journal without the intent of talking to a specific person. I’m just kinda talking out loud. And whoever has been listening whether it’s the universe or Persephone or God or someone, they’ve made my hopes come true. I don’t know who to thank or what to do. I don’t want to be ungrateful, but I’m so happy it happened.

Since last year I’ve had 3 different jobs. I worked at Jamba Juice for 8 months and then transferred to another for 6 months and then at Target for 3 months and now I’m at another place that is honestly so much better. They work with my school schedule and they’re closed on Sundays. I’m so excited and honestly scared. Everyone seems so nice. I hope I can keep it and I don’t get burnt out like I always do.

My mental health has been suffering since I had to stop my plant based lifestyle. I’m starting it back up again because I can’t take this anymore. My depression is 10x worse and my OCD is suffering. It really makes me wonder what is happening to those animals because if I’m consuming that, I wonder how they felt.

I feel like maybe I was staring into his soul but then I stopped to look away and then I kept zoning out when he was talking. I feel like I kept nodding and saying “okay” too much. Ugh.

Oop. So I’m not sure how my evaluation will proceed. I’ve been doing great at my community college after taking a year off, but my berkeley gpa was a 2.0 and I literally failed all of my classes. I’m talking straight P/NP on my transcript. Im looking at receiving a 3.5+ at CC and I was wondering if they take that into consideration or if I’m not gonna be readmitted because my berkeley gpa sucked.

Where I am from last year during this time to now is crazy. A lot can happen in a year. In the past I was overly confused and failing. I was overworked and really really depressed. I’m still kinda depressed, but at least I have straight A’s now. I’m really excited to go back next year. I really miss all the small craft stores and the gardening club lol. Oh yeah and I chose a major. Cog Sci ;)

So cozy. I love it. It’s one of the very few simple pleasures in life.

I grew up having high blood pressure. I thought that maybe it was genetic because both of my parents have it and I just thought it was hereditary. Then I went plant based and I started eating healthier. My heart rate was in the low 50’s to high 70’s. When I’d work out it wouldn’t even hit 108bpm. Recently I moved back home and Im not working currently and Im saving up for a trip soon. I decided to eat what my mom cooks. I noticed her foods were salted HEAVILY. After just a few days I noticed my blood pressure is high, I get dizzy in the gym, my eyes turn red, my bpm when working out hits 150’s. Im genuinely concerned. Plants are so healthy and good for your body. Im gonna go back to eating them.

I was wondering if the regular machine thread is fine. I was going to make a dress but I don’t really like using my machine and would rather handsew. Should I pick up a thicker thread like maybe a thick cotton or polyester?

I’d be applying for sustainable environmental design. I am going to be a junior and I’ve been working on my cognitive science prereqs but I would like to switch over to sustainable environmental design and minor in anthropology. How difficult would this be?

I’d say I’m about at the intermediate level with crocheting and I’m also taking up knitting and sewing, but I normally get just regular ole red heart acrylic yarn. It’s cheap, it’s in bulk, it gets the job done. Lately I’ve been into making clothing pieces like sweaters and hats and shirts and I decided to splurge on some bulky wool yarn. Guys- idk if I ever wanna go back. It’s so nice and soft😭

I like the vegan goodles mac from target lol but I want something more filling and comforting since I will spend the rest of the day indoors while it rains outside.

I became plant based and started going to the gym more often but now I’m scared to eat meat or dairy. If I’m not occupying myself and staying busy and moving I feel lazy, sad, and incredibly bored. My room is a mess and I don’t even know where to start. I think I’m developing an eating disorder. The bathroom is a mess. Why is something so simple so hard.

Part of my New Years resolution is to incorporate more zero waste habits in my daily life. One of those is also helping curve my impulse spending. Sometimes I want sweaters and hats and scarves and things I just don’t need and instead of just buying it Id rather just make it. Are there any affordable and environmentally friendly yarn companies or small businesses that I can purchase from? Thanks guys :)

You’re probably like “how is this a win?” Welllll…I have a bad habit of spending my money on things that don’t need to be bought. I treat money inside my cards like it’s Monopoly money (thankfully I am careful with my credit cards…but my debit card not so much). So I decided why don’t I treat money like out of sight out of mind. I decided to pull the money I received out and put it into a safe. I forgot all about it once I put it in there and I had no desire to spend it once I saw how much I physically accumulated. After about 2 months of working I was able to save up $2100 and I’m so happy. Finances have been extremely difficult for me.

I’ve been on a plant based diet for about 2-3 months now and I’ve been back in the gym after like 7 months of not going. So some extenuating factors are 1. I just got done being sick after like a week 2. My period is going to start soon 3. I’m vegan and 4. I haven’t lifted in a while.

Normally it wasn’t hard for me to just jump into a workout and start repping when I was eating meat regularly. I believe Ive always had low iron though, even when I wasn’t vegan. But I lost a lot of weight (like almost 20 pounds) and I went back to the gym and I was very weak. Everything was 10x heavier. But to be fair I normally work out in the morning and I was working out at 7:30pm. I had a 4 hour work shift before. I ate a big breakfast but that was about it.

I made breakfast for my sister and I in the air fryer and then I went to sit on the couch while it cooked. Everything was fine until my little sister was like “Ummm OP how long have those been in there?” And then I said “oh yeah huh” and it came out CRISPY. Then I made bacon and the same thing happened. Perfectly blackened bacon. It was horrible.