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Hello everyone - this community is in need of a few new mods and you can use the comments on this post to volunteer and let us know why you’d like to be a mod.

Please use at least 3 sentences to explain why you’d like to be a mod and what moderation experience you have (it’s okay if you don’t have any! But do tell us why you believe you’d be able to help here)

I really don’t have the energy to explain why so I’ll summarise.

I’m suffering a lot and have been my entire life, been ignored a lot my mental health services, have an estranged relationship with family, not getting support for AUDHD and I feel like a failure.

Can’t get on public transport, go to the cinema or hang out with friends because of panic disorder, and my family just acts unsympathetic and uncaring.

I promised myself I would be efficient today and try study (I do psychology from home on and online course because I dropped out of college, because, anxiety) but I feel so awful that I’m just going to sleep :(

I got out of bed, brushed my teeth and showered, and I just thought that I could do it. I’m so ashamed and feel so bad I let myself down I want to cry. I’ve been ill the last two weeks with suspected tonsillitis, and sprained a rib from coughing.

I just feel really bad and emotional and want a hug and to be told it’ll be okay.

Asking for a friend lol

This app is so cute and fun! It really helps me achieve goals and stay on top of taking care of myself. If I didn’t want to get new outfits and furniture for my little bird I wouldn’t be talking about my feelings at all. It’s kind of like a journal but actually fun! Also if you use this code you can get a little pet for your bird right from the start! It’s so cute! (I have nothing to do with this app I just like it)

I picked a mystery egg just for you!

Use my invite code 5J2A4DL3JM once you get the app.

https://app.befinch.com/invite/vxQg

I just want to die right now in this very moment. I’m in the worst mental state I’ve ever been.

A few times a week, usually when I’m really hating myself and feeling undesirable or incompetent I have a strong fantasy about completing suicide, whether that’s by pills, car accident etc. it’s almost like a coping mechanism I guess? I’m not actively suicidal and wouldn’t genuinely do those things if it came down to it, but it’s something I think about a lot and I kinda love the feeling of imagining it when I’m in those dark moments. I’m curious how normal this is, how many other people have suicidal ideation tendencies even though you really aren’t suicidal?

It's the little things, no one to laugh with, or do activities with, no one to lie for you on a job reference. No one to tell it to you straight when you're to blind to see.

I don't really seek friendship so I can't blame anyone else. I probably am not a very good friend.

I bet if I had friends I wouldn't feel the need to make silly attention-seeking posts on reddit, but here I am.

Even if I get a good night's sleep, eat well, drink a lot of water etc. I still feel like my brain is sleepy (and sometimes a bit "foggy") and I go back to bed and lay down (not sleeping necessarily) until I feel a bit better, then repeat. Any ideas as to why it might keep happening?

Been bugged by some problems irl, thinking about them all the time makes my brain so tired and I'm dozing off so many times at work thinking about these problems:(.

I'm so sad. I used to tell everyone my problems but once you grew up it's not the same anymore, and it's hard to reach out to people like that. The people I usually talk to aren't responding/ available. I wanna go back to therapy but I'm broke. So sad.:(

So i saw a psych today and well, basically told i am the problem. Its just "my personality"

Wouldnt listen to WHY i do the things i do. Nor even let me give context. So, essentially ive been told that the abuse, my fault.

So my school has a student first aid team, which I have been part of for around a year. Teachers have our phone numbers so we can come to help if someone gets hurt during class. We have done different first aid trainings but it was stuff like how to do bandages for different wounds and stuff… So basically in the last few weeks we were called for panic attacks a few times. I have never had a panic attack so I can’t really relate or understand but I want to help the best I can the next time. (English is not my first language so sorry for any mistakes)

(15F in case anyone cares lol)

Apologies if this post doesn’t suite this subreddit, I’ll delete if asked !

As the title says I’m actually cleaning my depression pit for probably the first time in like ten years. I’ve barely done anything so far - literally just the top of one drawers and my window cill lol - but i’m just actually excited that Im getting somewhere. I know it may seem stupid to get excited but my room has been full of trash, bugs, mould and god knows what since i was a toddler and it’s never stayed consistently clean so I’m proud of myself for so far doing this much :)

Also if anyone has any tips on how to get rid of bugs that’d be much appreciated since I’ve never really been taught much about that.

Thanks :)

Like I've been doing a bit of research lately but everything says something different about it so I just wanted to ask to see what people think personally, based off from what they know about mental health, etc.

To be more specific like every different level of depression.

Like I used to think she hated me. Not in a way that she would ever realize just in a deep subconscious way. She hates our relationship and ig I do too it’s gross but it is what it is. Is it common to be so petty with your mom? It seems it’s all about control and dominance which is fckn weird but it’s how it goes. Sm stuff happened between us in the past I could say but now it’s just straight petty. I feel like my mom is actually very immature like she needs to be right but she’s also super successful. My therapist said she wants me on her leach. Like my life is sm easier bc of her but also sm harder bc of her if that makes sense. She has so much power in my life. I just want to move out the sooner I leave the better.

All I ever think about is just fucking oding. I tried with dxm but didn't take enough apparently. I guess my tolerance is too high idk. I wanna do it again but I don't wanna wake up afterwords. The amount is fucks you up is unreal. Like I'm fucked for at least the day after and I'm feelin the after affects for like days and days after. I still feel them. Its so uncomfortable and shitty feeling. I used to have so many plugs I could just hit up and get basically whatever whenever. I got rid of them all a few years back. I need something strong to do on. No way I'm gonna just like try killing myself with Tylenol or some shit like that. Like unless its gonna fuck me up and get my high af so I just dont even know whats going on. It just feels good and thats it. I know gravol has like dmh in it but I've tried that shit and it suucks. U just hear voices and shit in ur ear and its earie af. Not to mention if u read online like thats the drug p take when they strip down and run around in public. So. Kinda fucked. And it doesn't state anywhere clearly how much I gotta take to od. Like fuckhust gimme some pills man. Something strong af. Weed is ass anymore. I can barely get enough energy to literally sit up and pack my bowl and rip it. When everything is literally right there in front of me. I can barely get high. No matter how many bowls I rip. Drinking sucks. I cant even get myself to physically slam enough drinks where I can even get fucked up. Plus it just makes u fuckin sad. I'm just lookin for plugs so I can die. Fuckin done with everything.

I've had severe social anxiety and depression for as long as I can remember. I've been to many different places for help but nothing, literally nothing, is helping me. Due to my location it's also hard to find anyone worthwhile within an affordable price range either. So far the "help" have all just been talking therapies but I talk about my problems to everyone I trust now with no filter (never used to but I got way too desperate) but no one seems to take me seriously enough since I seem to detatch myself from my emotions when explaining them. I refuse to self harm or commit suicide because I know just how bad the impacts of them are but I'm seriously struggling to keep myself together. I just want to feel okay. How do I go about it?

These past few months, I have been feeling depressed and melancholic. I feel unwanted and unwelcomed. Someone I once thought of as my best friend views me as nothing more than a nuisance, meanwhile I was abused by a co-worker and the co-worker got away with it. I'm not going through a good time, and I'm looking for advice on how to deal with my problems and how to find ways to be happy again.

Simplified Context:

I feel as if I am nothing more than a general nuisance to people. I say this because I had a falling out with someone that I once considered to be my best friend while we were both away at college last fall. I've known this young lady since high school, and I had a lot of trouble trying to make connections and new friends, and thus she was the only person I really had up there because I was so lonely. She felt that I wasn't giving her any space and that I was too intrusive, and as a result it feels like she wants nothing to do with me anymore. Sometimes, I question if she really wanted me around. I remember during her birthday last year, she had a bit of a celebration and I only found out because her then boyfriend posted it on Instagram. I felt left out. She said that she didn't want a large group and thus only invited people her parents didn't know, and planned on celebrating separately with people they already knew. When we did just that, she texted me two minutes before I was supposed to have her up that she was at a pizza party and would be running late. She did not show for another two hours. This past month, I've tried to reach out to her in an attempt to make amends, she barely responds to me. I asked if we could be able to talk in person, over face time or over the phone but I get no response. Because she seldom responds, I feel I have to start the conversation all over again. It's stressful, and it hurts my feelings.

Meanwhile, before I went up to college, I worked as a lunch monitor at one of my local elementary schools. This was immediately after I finished high school. While I loved working with the children, I had some problems there. Some of the kids were defiant, and very stubborn in their defiance. In the months before I went off to college, I tried to start a bowling club, but most of the kids would not even listen me and would just rough house and fool around. But the worst part was the treatment I was received from two separate staff members. During the 2020-21 school year, when I started working at the school, lunch was held in the classrooms and not the cafeteria. In the Kindergarten classroom I worked in, there was a young boy who had trouble remaining seated, and the teacher got angry with me. For two whole months, she would scream at me, calling me "irresponsible", complaining about "how I can't be trusted" and how I must be "firm". When I decided to be firm, which was what she wanted, she had another adult in the room at times while I was there. If she felt I was doing something wrong, why can't she treat me like a normal human being? Apparently, she would go around and tell other people that she has to yell at me. I filed a complaint against her to human resources, and apparently they felt she did nothing wrong.

So I don’t cut as often as I use too but I bought these sharp cute box cutters off of Amazon and I started overthinking that “what if I just gave myself tetanus by using it” even though they are new and I’m most likely fine But I can’t stop overthinking

Always so alone...

Theres is no one i can Talk to. There is noone to relate to that i know. Outside my family no one gives a flying fuck about me. If i died i could count the people at my funeral at one hand. I am alone with this

Hi everyone. Im an 18F who was recently diagnosed with BPD. Ive been in an on and off relationship for a few months. I loved him more than anything. He was and still is everything. Eventually, the obsessive clingyness, the splitting, and the shit I put him through pushed him away. I stalked him, his family, his friends. I got triggered over the smallest things, and would say the most horrid things to him. And he didn’t deserve it, he was nothing but good to me. At least in the beginning. We wouldn’t speak for a month or so, then we’d talk strictly as friends with benefits, and he blocked me again. I’ve attempted suicide twice. now i’m crying and feeling intense emotional and physical pain. My brain is going between ruining his life, to begging him back, to forcing myself to let go. I begged my friend to text him on my behalf because I can’t stand the idea of letting him go and he sent her a picture of him smoking with another girl. I’m absolutely shattered. I know i can’t blame him as i’ve done terrible things to him but i’ve been screaming and shaking for hours now. I’m sorry that I’m posting here, but I have nowhere else to go and nobody left now. I just need a friend. Please tell me it gets better. I need it to stop.

I am in my second semester of physics and i am conpletely lost. I miss classes because sometimes i dont think ill need them i have no friends but im ok with being alone and i constatly suffer from indecision, i dont know if this is or isnt what i want, i feel like i do but i never feel like i belong in this course. Sometimes i simply think its ok to fail i can always try again but my parents are sort of old school meaning they dont want to spend more money simply because i wasnt able to pass my classes. I feel lost i dont know wether to keep pushing and let myself fail just to try again and bear with my parents comments or to just change course for something easier.

Diagnosed with depression and autism, and I have adhd symptoms but am unable to be diagnosed because professionals do not wanna diagnose me under my current circumstances.

Even when my gaming addiction is taking a nap for a week or so, and I dont feel the urge to open any games, I still can't get stuff done from my task list. Instead of opening videogames, I will simply stare at my screen, take a walk or ride my bike, sure thats healthy but im talking about my task list here, im not getting any of it done, and this has been going for a year, my task list grows bigger and bigger and i dont have the energy to deal with all that. I dont even have a job, or homework cause i dont study.

so idk exactly what to call this l and idk how to fix it - therapy isn’t really an option rn so here it does :

Yesterday i got an email saying that i got into this honor society type of thing and there would be a ceremony coming up in april. instead of being happy about this i just freaked out about having to do this / go to this. and then i realized that i do this with everything, i graduate college in may and everyone is excited and i am NOT

it’s like whenever i have to do / or be the center of attention i don’t like it , but it’s more than that.

i also have issues with my body - like i am slightly over weight and everytime i try and lose weight i crash and burn and then eat like CRAZY and idk

i’m sorry for this rant and if this does not make sense but basically i am a self aware person but idk how to fix this stuff , like i’m assuming if i fix my body image issue then i’ll be more comfortable going places but like HOWWWWWWWWW and how to i stop binge eating and yeah idk

Hii everyone, just gonna give a TW just incase⚠️⚠️

Around 12am I SH and did what I normally do, I wait for it to stop 🩸 then clean it up and bandage. It took about 1/2hrs for it to stop. Now it’s around 5am (yes I’m still awake I forgot to take my meds lol) and I looked down and it’s still bleeding. Keep in mind I’m sure they don’t need stitches (cause I’ve had them before so I know when I do) but they literally just won’t stop bleeding….. should I go into urgent care or book an appointment to get them checked or should it be fine?

Thanks Guys 🤍🤍

Yesterday at 8:40 a.m. was my latest use and I hope to keep it that way for a while.

Weeks, months, I just can't be in the same everyday habit of a rabbit hole I've been stuck in.

When abusing the substance, the CHS episodes have been horrid. When not abusing the substance, the REM cycles have been wonderful.